Dont know what to call it!

Several times, it so happens that though my foreground process is busy doing the need of the hour, the background process is in a BLOCKED state, thinking of essentially only one thing. I am not even sure whether I should be worrying too much about it. Primarily , people who may hear about this, might consider me a lunatic! Infact , most of them who have heard this have indeed considered me so and moved away from me. Alas! what is stupid for the world is sensible and sensitive to me. This made me move away from my dear ones. Sometimes, in fact, i dont even share this with anyone. Drifting away from people may not even be a good idea. Who knows it can even have the power of driving me Mad! I am waiting to see what destiny has in place for me. May be my outlook towards certain things are different ? May be there is no one or rarely some folks who are like me??